It's 2:15am and I can't sleep - I'm going to pay for this come 6am when the alarm goes off.
Not much has changed here - things are still crazy hectic and I've been feeling down lately. I mean, there's some great things going on in my life right now, but everything is different. My schedule, my planning, my meals, everything - I feel as if I'm living on a shoestring, just living day to day. It's hard to explain, but all structure has disappeared from my life. I used to have this whole routing - wake up, gym, work, school, home, take care of business, have dinner, hang out watching TV and go to bed. A pattern. A routine.
Nothing though, now. I'm TRYING to eat right, but it's not working. I've been as unmotivated as you can imagine, and nothing seems to make me want to be different. I mean - I KNOW what I'm doing to myself. I have a choice of rising about and achieving new things and falling into my own self pity, and yet I've chosen the second one.
I'll figure this out, but this one is going to need time. As I said, there's some great things going on in my life - mostly school related. In fact, you should all turn on the Today Show (you know, the national AM tv show) Thursday morning. I'm not sure what time during the program this will be, but we (my band) has been invited to perform on the Today Show at Campus Martius Park here in Detroit. I'm not sure how it's going to work but we're going to be downtown at 5:15am on Thursday and performing for the Today Show, so set those DVRs.
Anyway, the weight loss thing is in trouble. I'm not done, and I certainly haven't failed, but it's been tough. Going to cut this short - I've got to be up in 3 1/2 hours. I can't sleep at all, I've tried about 4 times tonight. Hang in there with me.
9 comments:
Best of luck brother.
Tuck,
I know it's not easy right now bro but you need to get this part of your head straight. Allowing life to dictate your actions to you is not going to help you do what you need to do. If you need to talk, I'm here but I can't do this for you. I guess what I'm trying to say is Buck Up Little Trooper. You CAN do this if you focus. If you don't though, it could get very ugly very quickly.
JIM
You need to do what I'm currently working on: SET THAT DAMN ROUTINE.
Right now, you've got too many emotions going on to allow yourself to think too much. Work through that piece by piece, but set up a schedule and abide by it.
I'm feeling for you, Rob, I wish the best for you and am praying for you!
Keep your head up, do things one day at a time, one thing a day... each day you feel up to it add another responsibility. Don't let yourself get overwhelmed by trying to do everything at once, you've got enough overwhelming you as it is. Decide whats important, start there and slowly build on it. You'll get there.
Alcohol.
Glad to hear from you Rob. Congrats on the Band being on the Morning Show, sorry I missed it.
Hello. I am a university professor who is conducting research on WEIGHT LOSS BLOGGERS AND THE ROLE BLOGGING HAS PLAYED IN THE BLOGGER’S WEIGHT LOSS.
As you may be aware, a lot of research has been done over the years on weight loss but very little has been done on blogging and weight loss. I hope you will help me remedy this.
I have chosen you as a potential research participant because you have a weight loss blog, have a weight loss goal of 100 pounds or more, and have been blogging for at least three months.
If you choose to participate in this study, you will be asked to complete a survey that I will email you. Your answers will be completely confidential and I will use a pseudonym of your choice in the final study.
I have an information sheet about the study I would be happy to share with you. Please email me at aldridga@nsuok.edu if you would like to take a look at it.
Thank you for your time and best of luck to you on your weight loss journey.
Sincerely,
Amy Aldridge Sanford, PhD
Assistant Professor of Communication Studies
Northeastern State University
Tahlequah, OK
We have spoken and I am glad for that, just wanted you to know I started a blog of my own. Thanks for the idea!!!
It's been a while since I've checked anyone's blog - just catching up Rob. You have a lot on your plate for sure. Keep the faith as I'll keep you in my prayers.
Stay strong. This too shall pass.
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