I posted a blog a few hours ago - this is just a follow up to it.Around 3:30 or so, I was starving. I ate my lunch early, so I hadn't eaten anything since like 10:30. So there I was sitting at work, and all I could think about was food. I was talking to Billy online and telling him about this, and we're talking about how I just need to find the fire again.
So I am supposed to leave work at 5, and Erin doesn't get home until after 8:30. To be flat out blunt, I didn't trust myself to go home with 3 1/2 hours to myself and not empty the fridge in one quick binge. I just didn't trust myself.
Instead, I stayed at work late, went to the gym at six - and I had a tuna packet that I grabbed from my lunch desk and ate it dry on the way to the gym.
When I got into the gym, I started thinking about how much I've failed myself lately. Binging on foods I have no business even thinking about, having shitty workouts, staying in these 270's since I believe August.. I just got fed up, and something snapped in me.
My bench weight went up 20 pounds. My shoulders, arms, back, abs, everything went much more intense. My leg press maxed the machine, and I did both leg presses and calf raises at 400 pounds.
I was on fire.
I came home, and still wanted food.
I had an apple.
Erin gets home in about 45 minutes and there's going to be baked perch and a side salad ready for both of us.
Today - I get an A. I'm proud of that.
5 comments:
Remember this feeling of pride, and remember the feeling of shame. Perhaps those memories can help you avoid bad decisions and make good ones from here on out. Proud of you!
Great choice today Rob - congratulations. I know its been a real struggle for you lately but I think by recognizing the struggle and your weaknesses you've come a long way to overcoming them.
Maybe part of the problem is you've been on this plateau for quite awhile in the 270s, and its tough to stay motivated and focused when you don't see results. But you WILL see results if you get as re-energized as you were before - I have no doubt.
You've come so far and done so great - you've proven you can do it - now it's time to suck it up and don't give up on yourself when your goal is in sight!
good for you on your choices today!! :) :) :) i'm proud of you. make the next 2 days STELLAR because the food holiday of the year is right around the corner.
Rock'em Sock'em Rob-bots.
That's rad. I've been feeling really lethargic today and I just don't want to drag myself to the gym, but I know I have to, and I have to push as hard as I can to get the results that I want. Great inspiration, thanks.
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