Another weekend gone

Not much to report on today - but things are going to be changing soon. I'm not sure how, but I've been doing a lot of soul search lately.

February was about as bad as you could write it up - I broke the diet way too much, I couldn't stay focused - it just went to crap. March *NEEDS* to be better.

I turn 31 on March 31. I still haven't taken control of what I need to take control of. I'm looking into options and alternatives to keep me going - honestly, if it wasn't for this blog, I would have been off the wagon this month. It's a tough go - and I can only use life's distractions for an excuse for so long.

For those of you in the "Tucks' Big Challenge" - sorry that I've slacked on getting results up - I *HOPE* to have them up tomorrow. It's been just.. well, not good lately. For those of you who root me on in this blog, and for those of you who are getting bored with seeing my struggles, hang in there with me. Motivation has been lacking lately - but I'm trying to get something meaningful out of this. I know you've all heard this a hundred times - but I'm trying to reinvent myself. Trying to find out WHY I do what I do - WHY I can go to a Euchre party and not be proud enough of my efforts to NOT eat everything I can find.

It has to get better - I'm not going to be one of those people who lose all this weight, rest on their laurels, and then gain it all back. That will NOT be me. I've earned what I've earned - that will not be taken away.

More later - stay strong.