I blogged last night about how shitty things were, and frankly, I wanted to post another blog before you all commented on that one because I want to leave last week in the past.
I haven't been doing right. I have been eating poorly, and I've not been motivated to do anything about it. I feel as if I've been looking for excuses to eat like shit because I'm stressed out and it's making me feel sorry for myself.
Frankly, that sucks. I went to the gym this morning like I always do, and I got on the Elliptical. I was planning on doing my same old 30 minute workout and while I was running, all I was doing was thinking about how I have been failing myself. So, when I got to 30, I just kept running. I was angry when I was running today - all I could think about is why I was in the gym, busting my ass every single freaking day, and then I go and screw it all up by eating like a bat out of hell.
So I went the full hour. I left my warmup pullover on the entire time, I wanted to sweat out as much as I could. When I was done, I could have rung the sweatshirt out.
March 3rd already. I'm back to where I was at the beginning of the year. I f'ed myself again.
28 days until I turn 31. I've got a choice to make.
Weigh In - 280.4.
9 comments:
Hi All Readers:
Although Rob has acknowledged that his eating behaviour is influenced by many pscyhological "demons", I would just like to point out that Rob's post has highlighted an important fact:
It is nearly impossible to "out-train" a poor diet. In so many of the blogs associated with F.A.T., it is apparent that may people believe a weight-loss program must consist of "beating yourselves up in the gym in hopes that it can off-set a crappy diet". For the health of your musculoskeletal systems, especially for those of you who are still very overweight, it is worth considering an alternative strategy. Regular physical exercise is important for many reasons (including maintenance of a so-called "healthy weight"), however it is not necessary to "kill" yourself each time you're in the gym. Moreover, it is important (for many physical, psychological, and emotional reasons) not to engage in "crazy" workouts as form of punishment for poor dietary decisions. [Rob, I'm not saying that 1-hr on the elliptical is crazy, I'm just discussing a general point here that I hope can help F.A.T.]
Back to Rob's post...
Rob, you have agreed with many of your fellow bloggers that you *need* to find out why you are not aligning your behaviours with your stated goals. Until you do this, it will be a life-long struggle for you to attain (and maintain) your desired weight. I think that your blog is an excellent way to stay accountable and the support from your fellow F.A.T. members will prove to be invaluable.
If possible, it's worth seeing a professional to uncover why you choose behaviours that are inconsistent with your stated goals. However, in the meantime, keep "talking it out" through your blog, and maybe you'll start to get at the root of your struggles with eating.
Best of luck!
I'm with whoever that was, Tuck. I've stated before that it's not worth working out if you're going to overeat, and I stand by that. Get the food under control, bro. You may very well have a psychological issue here, but you kept it in check long enought to lose 100 pounds, so you need to remember how it worked before and just freaking do it.
Jim:
I wouldn't say that it's not worth working out. I'm sure you would agree that there are many other benefits to be gained from regular exercise. However, IMO, exercise can only do so much in the "weight-loss game". For most people, a bad diet just cannot be overcome by exercise. The body could break-down long before weight-loss goals are acheived and it's really tough to burn enough calories through conventional exercise programs to make significant changes in body composition.
My $0.02.
I got nothin to say I aint said before.
It is true that you can't out-train poor nutrition, but it's better to exercise than to not.
On another topic, is there going to be a "March Madness" challenge or something? I think we could all use a little motivation...
Rob, seriously take a look back at your journey so far. You have lost over 100 pounds man! That is an amazing accomplishment. Something that not a lot of people can say that they've accomplished. But you are stuck now.
You are stuck in the middle of your journey and the sun is starting to set for the day. You can suck it up and get back on track and make it to your destination by sundown, or you can go ahead and make camp where you are at and forever kick yourself for not going the distance.
Either way the choice is yours. I will tell you from my experiences though that you're much better off if you keep pushing along, because as soon as you rest, that is when the FAT is going to try and strike back ten fold.
first off I agree with what has been said thus far but common "Rob, knows he can't out train a diet....." He has told me that before and so have many others. Probably 90% of weight loss is diet. Loosing weight is so much more than just having knowledge on how to loose weight. Just like anything else in life, if you don't stick to your plan then it wont work. I really liked Billy's post a couple days about things he has tried and how they have all worked. They worked cause he stuck with his plan. I bet Tuck could say the same thing about his first 100lbs lost. That obviously worked. Plain and simple loosing weight is hard.
You want to know why I haven't succeeded? cause I haven't stuck to my plan and like you said you can't out train a diet. Do I know that? Yes. I have read so much freaking fitness and diet literature. Until you put together a balanced diet and exercise program you will not reach your fitness goals, it's that plain and simple.
Don't get me started on all this go talk to a shrink about your food issues. I guess some people think shrinks can fix the world, I am not one of those. I don't think Rob has a eating disorder.... but I am not a Dr. either....
I guess bottom line Rob you have already proven you can loose weight. You have the knowledge, you know what to do you just have to get yourself to commit back to it. I don't think your messed up in the head cause you like food and eating, we all do. This journey is different for all of us. I don't look at you any different than day one. You are still one of the leaders, you have still lost 100 lbs, I still look up to you, and #1 you still freaking want to better yourself. So go get some!
Anyway sorry for the rant but it's been a long time in the making...
Rip:
The question is...
If you (and others) *know* all of this stuff and you (and others) *want* to lose the weight, then *why* are you (and others) not applying this "common" knowledge? (i.e., *why* are you (and others) not executing your plan?)
This is the question that, IMO, requires some introspection. And, for some people, professionals can help. [Although, it is not necessary, of course. But, for people who have addictive food-related tendencies or eat due to some underlying emotional issues, it's not enough to just provide information. It would be akin to just telling an alcoholic to just "stop drinking because it's bad for him/her".]
Although, as Billy pointed out in one of his previous posts, there is so much crap propagated in the diet/health/nutrition/fitness literature that many people are way too confused. Due to this confusion, they have difficulty reaching their goals because they feel unable to develop an appropriate plan for them. But, there are members of the F.A.T coalition that don't always seem confused (based on what they write in their blogs).
Anyways, this is not a criticism. As an interested reader of many F.A.T. blogs, and as someone who battled similar issues for years, I can appreciate the difficulty you're going through and I just tried to offer another perspective for a guy who is struggling.
Good luck to all!
...one more thing...
I am also very impressed by what Rob (and others) have accomplished to date -- I wasn't trying to take anything away from what you've all done However, like others in F.A.T., *Rob* is not satisfied. And, when one stumbles, it sometimes helps to hear something from someone else (even if the knowledge is "recycled").
Did you stop weighing yourself every day? I see you've gained almost ten pounds in the last month...did you see it coming?
I'm just wondering, because I'd be thinking of what the scale said every time I put whatever in my mouth. I guess that was just worked for me.
You have to find what makes you determined enough to do what you want to do, but its equally important to put a process in place so you can constantly monitor the situation. the minute you don't know whats going on is when it's all going to start going in the wrong direction.
Post a Comment